no fair

i can hear those words rolling out of her mouth
"no fair mom"
"she's just so lucky"
as if her sister (because she's bigger and always will be)
has an unfair advantage in all things
and hence little one is always trying to keep up

but guess what little one?
mama feels like that too at times

it's only a passing feeling
one without much truth
and certainly one that rears its head
when one is
a) tired
b) not concentrating on what one is supposed to be doing
c) both a and b combined

no one ever said life is supposed to be fair...
it's how we handle it that makes us standout
and maybe even appear oh "so lucky".

shameless plug

I gotta say it's pretty cool to see my hubby cross over to the dark side of blogger world. For those who have never blogged, visited blogs, or who could pretty much just care less about others' lives, this isn't for you (but then you probably wouldn't be here would you?!). But if you wanna laugh, you wanna know a little bit more about me and who has been my biggest influence my entire adult life, then venture on over to my other half's blog. Fair warning- we are very different. But thank God! If I was married to someone like me, I would probably be completely insane, and if he was married to someone other than me, well he'd be missing out lol. Anyway, shameless plug for the hubby, only because I think he's pretty amazing, and I think you may think so too (in that not so touchy feely, crude but brutally honest kinda way :))

http://thedailyshrug.blogspot.com/

the winding road

I remember this drive like it was yesterday. My great friend Wendy was driving. We both knew we were headed for a great day, but we had no idea where the road would lead us, for we had never been there before. It was the last day of our workshop in Sonoma, a weekend that changed both of our lives. I remember being so glad I didn't have to drive. I had my camera at the ready. This road we were on was so beautiful. One I had never ventured before. Every turn brought a new beauty, a new landscape.


And then I got sick. I had taken in so much, drunk it all in, and it left me feeling uneasy. Life is kinda like that sometimes. You can see the destination. You know you want it so badly. You know it will be great, that it is perfect for you. And along the way there are so many things to look at. So many things that are new, or strangely familiar, yet you don't know where to focus and it leaves you feeling out of sorts.
Sometimes on the road, you turn your head, because you drove by too fast, you feel like you missed something. Other times you just want to pull over and stay awhile, revel in the atmosphere, feel out your surroundings and stick your whole self into the environment, even if for just a minute.
But I am learning, or at least trying to remind myself, that no matter how beautiful the view, no matter how much you are pulled to look in all directions, it's best to keep your eyes straight ahead. Straight ahead on the road you know will take you where you want to go, where you want to be, where you're supposed to be.